Hitmonlee, return. "hitmonree!"

She caught herself, I'm guessing. Or maybe she does keep tabs on me and she already has this blog's link on bookmark. Either way, for some reason or the other she started to back off. Here comes a bigger problem, though. She keeps asking how I'd react if we broke up. Honestly, it wouldn't change much. I'd have less to do, but less to do would only mean more time for myself. I could work more freely without being anxious every shift to get out, though by now I'm sure that behavior has been forced into my DNA. I'd have too much time to game and literally all delusions of moving forward will vanish. I'd instantly be out of substance.

By "keeps asking", I really mean she's asked twice in a 24 hour period. That's a big step up from 0 in 10 months.

To think it's already been a year. It went by fast and it was pretty fun.

Sorry, guys.

Won't be able to make rounds today, but I'll be back on it by either tonight (Practically tomorrow by the ETA).

Thank you for your patience.


We saw Limitless yesterday. What better way for Asian kids that party with controlled substances to spend a Tuesday night watching a movie about a guy who goes from schmuck to super celebrity because a pill makes him smart?


**small spoiler**
It was okay if you liked the movie Jumper. It's movies like this I believe you should watch when you're feeling like crap.

Persuade.Men.Slanderously

And look at what this Blogger has become so quickly..

The girlfriend has been at it lately. It being my nerves and my patience. Every day it's the same bull crap with consistent bossiness, testy attitude, and overall stupid pretty-princess mindset. I'm tired of it after only having to deal with it for the upwards 50% of this relationship. She tried apologizing last night after embarrassing me the entire day. Of course I'll shrug it off. As always should be the easy answer. Of course tomorrow I'll wake up hoping this stupid and sudden change in her behavior has changed. As should any person in a bad situation should hope. Of course when it doesn't, I'll just deal with it because there's something that hopes the old girl will come back around.

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I had a dream last night about my ex. These happen from time-to-time and while my dreams of my current gf happen more frequently, I tend to notice my ex and nothing else from the dream.

What does that mean? I haven't moved on? Well, I wake up and I remember all the stupid shit she put me through and all the heart ache and time wasting (Along with a good bit of money for a 14-18 year-old) And then I get angry that retarded crap like her showing up in my dreams still happens.

Maybe they're nightmares and I just don't remember. Heh.

Not likely.




Today's a pretty big day. Not for me, but for my friends. We'll all be crossing a bridge together into adulthood, but I had to make a special trip back across that bridge just for them.

I'm trying to think of all sorts of drinking games. Like we'll all play Halo or some shit and every time you die that's a drink and it has to be an audible gulp.

... Maybe a fighting game would be less intense as far as dying goes.

Decisions like the one this afternoon are why I like schedules

I shouldn't expect these people to call me friend. Especially since I wouldn't necessarily say that about them either, but a little structure is all I asked for. I was so angry for no good reason when they told me that everything was canceled.

But then again, this is where my girlfriend is given the chance to swoop my damaged ego and repair it by offering an even better alternative regardless of having to kill her own night.

This is just one of many reasons why I love her so much.
Is that selfish of me?