She caught herself, I'm guessing. Or maybe she does keep tabs on me and she already has this blog's link on bookmark. Either way, for some reason or the other she started to back off. Here comes a bigger problem, though. She keeps asking how I'd react if we broke up. Honestly, it wouldn't change much. I'd have less to do, but less to do would only mean more time for myself. I could work more freely without being anxious every shift to get out, though by now I'm sure that behavior has been forced into my DNA. I'd have too much time to game and literally all delusions of moving forward will vanish. I'd instantly be out of substance.
By "keeps asking", I really mean she's asked twice in a 24 hour period. That's a big step up from 0 in 10 months.
To think it's already been a year. It went by fast and it was pretty fun.